“You should write a blog.” I’ve heard it at least 47 times. Forty-seven is my official number of hyperbole, by the way. But I always hesitated. I was afraid it would end up, well, narcissistic (no offense R, J, M, et. al.). Plus, I’m a private person. I actually don’t want the whole world to know the intimate details of my life and family. Then one day . . .
It was January, and something I was reading (maybe John Piper’s Don’t Waste Your Life, but I can’t remember for sure) prompted me to ask myself this question: “When in my life have I felt most connected to God?” Not on a retreat or in a worship service. The question involved doing something. More like, “What I have done that intimately connected me with the Father?” Or maybe, “What did He create me to do that I recognize because, when I do it, it ‘fits’ and I know He is glorified?”
The answer came quickly. [Can’t believe I’m telling this to the world right now!] It’s when I study Scripture and write or speak about it. Currently, I’m not at a place in my life where I can do that with people face-to-face, so this was a small crisis. Should we move? Should I let go of this thing He created me to do? Is the timing just wrong? Why tell me this now, Lord, but don’t give me a way to do it? And that was the moment when He led me to do this blog.
Yes, I realize that was eight months ago. I ‘wimped out’. I made excuses. PLUS, I couldn’t think of a good name, and that, I’ve heard, is very important. Last month (July), I spent time with some amazing college girls, and I promised them that I would actually start blogging. At about the same time, while doing my quiet time in John, I read 12:27-28, which, of course, I had memorized at some point in the past, but now I found it freshly relevant. Jesus says, “Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!” It was never about Jesus’ wants and needs. It was always about the Father’s glory.
So that’s why I named this blog what I did. The ‘1151’ in the web address comes from Psalm 115:1. Not to us, O Lord, not to us but to your name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness.